How To Refute Atheism & Evolution | FREE BOOK | by Jesse Morrell


“But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer (ἀπολογία / apologia) to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear” ~ 1 Peter 3:15 ~

Every Christian should know how to defend the faith. And that is why I am giving away my book for free. When it comes to topics like atheism and evolution many Christians may feel intimidated to handle these issues. But with a little bit of study you will see that these objections to the Christian faith are actually the easiest to refute!

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Free Charles Finney Book!




 Sermons from the Penny Pulpit by Charles Finney are classic sermons that Finney preached in London from 1849-1851. God used Finney’s sermons to convert masses in the United States and abroad.

This volume is what you could call “Finney Gold!” It contains classic sermons like “Regeneration,” “Holiness Essential to Salvation,” “Quenching the Spirit,” “The Christians Rule of Life,” “Purity of Heart and Life,” “The Sinner’s Self-Condemnation,” “The Conversion of Children,” “Family Government,” “The Rationality of Faith,” and many others. It is our honor and joy to make this precious volume available with these anointed sermons.

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A Refutation to Gnosticism – Sinful Body Heresy Refuted by Jesse Morrell



Gnosticism says that you cannot live a holy and sanctified life in this world because you have a “sinful body,” and have to wait until you are free from your body by death.

The Bible contradicts this Gnostic heresy by teaching that you can live a holy life while in the flesh, sanctifying your body to God.

Gal 2:20 – I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

Rom 6:19 – I speak after the manner of men because of the infirmity of your flesh: for as ye have yielded your members servants to uncleanness and to iniquity unto iniquity; even so now yield your members servants to righteousness unto holiness.

Rom 12:1 – I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

1Th 5:23 – And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

A holy life is to be lived here and now:

Tit 2:11-12: For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men, Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world

Beware of the antichrist spirit which is in the world that teach this Gnostic philosophy of a “sinful body,” which means you cannot live a holy life.

1Jo 4:3 – And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world.

2Jo 1:7 – For many deceivers are entered into the world, who confess not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh. This is a deceiver and an antichrist.


product_thumbnail.php-2Does Man Inherit A Sinful Nature by Jesse Morrell is a thorough examination and refutation to one of the oldest theological excuses for sin – a sinful nature. With an abundance of scripture, keen logic, and an appeal to Christian teachers throughout history, this book not only shows that men are not born with a sinful nature but that sin is actually contrary to the nature God gave us. It is 211 pages.

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What does Romans 5:12 Mean?


What does Romans 5:12 Mean?
“Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned” (Rom 5:12).
Does this verse mean that we “sinned in Adam” as the Latin Vulgate mistranslated? No, because verse 14 says that our sin distinct from Adam’s sin. 
Rom 5:14 – Nevertheless death reigned from Adam to Moses, even over them that had not sinned after the similitude of Adam’s transgression, who is the figure of him that was to come.


In between Adam and Moses there was no Ten Commandments, so those who were sinning were not violating a directly expressed command as Adam had done. Nevertheless death continued to spread because they were sinning against the law of God written upon their human nature – their conscience that Romans 2:14-15 speaks about:


“For when the Gentiles, which have not the law, do by nature the things contained in the law, these, having not the law, are a law unto themselves: Which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean while accusing or else excusing one another” Rom 2:14-15


If Romans 5:12 is not saying that we sinned in Adam, what is it saying?

This verse is easily understood by way of analogy:
“Mary started giving hugs in Sunday School, and the flu was transmitted through hugs, and so the flu spread to all the kids in Sunday school because they all hugged.”
Analogy: The flu spread to everyone because everyone hugged each other. 
Scripture: Death spread to everyone because everyone sinned.
Analogy: One person brought the flu to Sunday School but it was spread by everyones individual hugging. 
Scripture: One person brought death into the world but it was spread by everyones individual sinning.
And so Adam brought sin into the world, and death by sin, and then death spread to all men because all men sinned.
This death I understand to be spiritual death, or separation from God through personal sinning, as physical death comes upon infants even before they have a chance to personally sin. We die physically because of Adam’s sin but we are spiritually dead in our own trespasses and sins.
So you are born spiritually alive (as no personal sin yet separates you from God), then spiritually die through sinning, so the death Adam brought into the world continues to spread through our individual sinning.
Notice the Bible says that YOUR iniquities separate you from God and you were dead in YOUR trespasses and sins.
Isa 59:2 – But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear.
Rom 7:9 – For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died.
Col 2:13 – And you, being dead in your sins and the uncircumcision of your flesh, hath he quickened together with him, having forgiven you all trespasses;
Luk 15:24 – For this my son was dead, and is alive again (alive for the second time).

The spiritual death that Adam brought into the world has spread to all men because of their own personal individual sinning. As the Apostle Paul said, “death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned” (Rom 5:12).


product_thumbnail.php-2Does Man Inherit A Sinful Nature by Jesse Morrell is a thorough examination and refutation to one of the oldest theological excuses for sin – a sinful nature. With an abundance of scripture, keen logic, and an appeal to Christian teachers throughout history, this book not only shows that men are not born with a sinful nature but that sin is actually contrary to the nature God gave us. It is 211 pages.

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Proof of God | The Infinite First Cause




As anything that had a beginning needs a cause,

the first cause had no beginning.

This means the first cause must be self-existent or infinite.

Therefore, the absolute proof of the infinite is the finite,

as the finite cannot exist without the infinite.

The effect is proof of the cause.

~ Jesse Morrell






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A Refutation to Socinianism by the Governmental Atonement View | Jonathon Edwards Jr


This is Jonathon Edwards Jr, the son of the revivalist Jonathon Edwards Sr, on why the atonement of Christ was necessary in order for the forgiveness of sins.


This is such a brilliant answer from the governmental atonement camp against the heresy of Socinianism.

The Socinians said that if sin is merely a matter of personal offense to God, just like any other person God can freely pardon it without any need for an atoning sacrifice.

Moral Government refutes this by showing that law and penalty is governmental with governmental purposes and if our penalty is going to be remitted in the pardon of sin, an atonement must substitute our penalty and fulfill its governmental purposes.

The atonement is a justification for the mercy of God, so that forgiveness does not conflict with public justice (Rom. 3:24-26).

An atonement is necessary for the same reason punishment would have been necessary, since atonement is a substitute for punishment.

This shows the genius of God and why “without shedding of blood is no remission” (Heb. 9:22).



The Scriptural Doctrine of Atonement by Caleb Burge has been said to be the best book on the Governmental Atonement theory. Burge expounds upon very profound concepts and presents them in a very intelligent and understandable way. This book was originally published in 1822. It contains pure theological gold on one of the most important doctrines of Christianity. It will be an absolute treasure in your library.


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Leonard Ravenhill on Original Sin & Charles Finney


Leonard Ravenhill and Charles Finney are two of my favorite preachers. This is what Leonard Ravenhill had to say about Charles Finney.




 Sermons from the Penny Pulpit by Charles Finney are classic sermons that Finney preached in London from 1849-1851. God used Finney’s sermons to convert masses in the United States and abroad.

This volume is what you could call “Finney Gold!” It contains classic sermons like “Regeneration,” “Holiness Essential to Salvation,” “Quenching the Spirit,” “The Christians Rule of Life,” “Purity of Heart and Life,” “The Sinner’s Self-Condemnation,” “The Conversion of Children,” “Family Government,” “The Rationality of Faith,” and many others. It is our honor and joy to make this precious volume available with these anointed sermons.



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Special Favor to Help our Christian Homeschool | Jesse Morrell



Will you do my family a HUGE favor? We are in a video contest for a scholarship for our homeschool. If our video gets the most votes, our kids would win $4,000 for their schooling.
Will you vote for us?

All you have to do is:

(You do NOT need a library card to register, just your email address.)
Vote for the one that says:
“Elizabeth M. – Around the World Through Books: Book Adventures”
~ Jesse Morrell


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Why Molecular Biology is Problematic for Atheism | Jesse Morrell | Intelligent Design



The mere existence of the “Genetic Code” is problematic for atheism because intelligent information only comes from an intelligent mind. But the dilemma for atheism goes even further.

In protein synthesis, proteins are necessary for the body to create proteins. In DNA replication, DNA is required for the body to create DNA. And in the translation of the genetic code, the genetic code can only be translated by translations of the genetic code. That is, the product is required for the production as a precondition. Proteins, which are created by the translation of genetic code, are required in the process of translation itself. Proteins are a “sine qua non” to the creation of proteins within the body.

The dilemma is this: What came first, the protein or protein synthesis? You can’t have protein without protein synthesis. And you cannot have protein synthesis without proteins. Proteins must exist in order for proteins to be created.

This all points to God creating “ex nihilo” the first protein, the first DNA, and the first information processing system of the cell.


How to Refute Atheism & Evolution 





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Dates & Location for The First National Street Preachers Conference


Join us March 29-31 for the first National Street Preachers Conference in the Dallas Fort Worth area.


This event is free to the public.


THURSDAY March 29th:

Morning Session at the church from 8:00am – 10:00am.

Outreach to the University of North Texas from 11:30am – 4:00pm.

Evening session at the church from 6:00am – 10:00pm

FRIDAY March 30th:

Morning Session at the church from 8:00am – 10:00am.

Outreach to the University of North Texas from 11:30am – 4:00pm.

Evening session at the church from 6:00am – 10:00pm

Night Outreach at Sundance Square Fort Worth 10:00pm – 12:00am.

SATURDAY March 31st:

Morning Session at the church from 8:00 am to 12:00pm

Afternoon Outreach at the Grassy Knoll in Dallas (where JFK was assassinated) from 12:30 pm – 4:00 pm.

Night Outreach at Sundance Square Fort Worth 8:00pm – 12:00am.


5220 Blair Oaks Dr, The Colony, TX 75056






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American Street Preacher Takes On Canadian Gay Pride | Dunnville Canada | Jesse Morrell


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A brother and sister in Canada heard that their small down called Dunnville was going to have it’s “First Gay Pride Event.” This unashamed public display of depravity deeply concerned them so they thought, “We need to bring in a street preacher, like Jesse Morrell, to preach at this event!”

I was more than eager to go. They bought me a plane ticket, put me up in a nice bed and breakfast (where I found a chess set in the closet to play on my downtime), and even arranged some speaking engagements in the area besides the outreach.


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We had one day in which we could either go to downtown Toronto or to Niagara falls for some street preaching. I had been to Toronto twice before but Niagara I had only been to once, back in 2005. I also thought that Niagara falls would be a great place to do some teaching videos, so that is where we went.

I did a teaching video on the topic of, “Should Christians Even Witness to Homosexuals?” I was once apart of an “evangelism ministry” that wanted to create a policy for their network that banned outreaches to gay pride events because “those people are reprobates.” But I have seen through my open air preaching over the years multiple homosexuals repent and come to the Lord. I take the Great Commission, to go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature, to include homosexuals at gay pride events. The Great Commission doesn’t discriminate! As a street preacher, I offer my services to everyone!

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First we did some street preaching over near the falls but we were unable to gather much attention. The noise from the water itself is rather loud. One woman did stop to listen and I engaged her in dialog, only to find out that she already knew who I was from the internet and came out to hear me preach. She said her family has been following my ministry since the beginning but she wasn’t serving the Lord at the moment. She stayed with the team the whole day, listened to the open air preaching, came to the church engagements where I spoke, and even joined the team for the Gay Pride outreach. She has since been very active on my facebook as well. I believe that during our time of ministry there, she repented and had her relationship with God restored.

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We moved from the area where the waterfalls are uphill to the entertainment district, which has various restaurants and amusements. It is a public street and I preached there before in 2005 with a team. A security officer for one of the stores confronted me and told me I needed to leave. He insisted it was private property. I was sure it wasn’t so I asked for the Police instead. When the Police arrived, I made sure that I was simply reading from my Bible in public, to avoid any false accusation that “This guy is out here screaming at people.” The Police first didn’t approach me at all. After observing me for a few minutes they finally approached me and told me that everything was fine, that it’s not a problem for me to do what I was doing. It’s a good thing I didn’t leave when the security officer told me it was private property!


My hosts went all out with marketing and promotion. The whole town knew I was coming. They even secured a speaking opportunity for me at the Anglican church. All the other churches they approached were uninterested. Below you can see some of the marketing signs they set up around town.

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These were literally on every light post downtown! Everywhere you went you saw these taped to the poles!

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The Gay Pride Event was being organized at a local coffee shop. The owner of the shop I am told is a very liberal doctor who got behind their cause. My host told me about some of the corruption stories behind this doctor. As a corrupt doctor, I can see why he would encourage homosexuality, since it causes so many health problems that need medical treatment. But in their coffee shop, my hosts set up brochures of my speaking engagement at the church right next to the flyers for the Gay Pride event.

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The Anglican Church is the American and Canadian branch for the Church of England. It is very traditional and looks like a Catholic or Lutheran church. I was surprised that I was allowed to preach in this church, since I am not anglican nor an ordained anglican priest. But over the years the Lord has opened up doors for me to speak in various denominations: Baptist, Church of God, Assembly of God, Holiness, Community, Mennonite, and now even Anglican!

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I started my sermon by talking about John Wesley – a member of the Church of England who became a street preacher and started the Methodist Church. He’s been a big inspiration for me in my ministry. But in his day, the doors to the Church of England where shut to him. That is why he took to the fields and the streets.

My message was my salvation testimony and then I also shared about my evangelism ministry. One man in attendance came because he heard about this “ex-drug dealer” who was going to be speaking in the Anglican church. He was a tough guy with a rough background, like me before I came to the Lord. He seemed really moved by my testimony and message and asked that I pray with him after the service. He seemed to have a heart to serve God but was facing a lot of temptations. Pray for him.

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This is the Anglican priest who let me share my testimony. He is from Lithuania. He said that the Lord actually saved him at a wicked heavy metal concert! (That sounds like my campus preacher friend Jim Gilles who got saved at a Van Halen concert.) After getting saved he said he became a Catholic priest, because the Catholic Church is what he knew in Lithuania, but he felt the Lord leading him to get married so he ended up becoming an Anglican priest instead.

I enjoyed talking with him and getting to know him better. He seemed very enthusiastic about my ministry. However, I was later told that after I preached at the Gay Pride event, they furiously tried to find out who brought me to town to try to do whatever they could to hurt them – in reputation, in finances, etc. Apparently the homosexuals found out that I spoke at the Anglican church so they confronted the priest about it. He said that he was sorry that he had me speak and that he didn’t really know what I was all about when he consented to having me come.

I’ve never understood Churches that don’t want to shake up their town and rock the boat. That is what being a Christian is all about. Look at the lives of Jesus and His apostles. Compromise with the world turns churches into societal poison, instead of a light unto the nations.


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I also spoke to the town “Prayer center.” We had a small turn out with maybe 8 people besides me. That’s OK because 12 Apostles turned the world upside down. I preached on the need for prayer AND evangelism, how one without the other isn’t enough. And I encouraged them to join The Street Preacher Movement. One brother who heard me preach did join us for the Gay Pride outreach, though I’m told his wife tried to persuade him not to. But just like the Anglican church, once the homosexuals heard that I spoke at the Prayer Center, they confronted the leader who likewise disowned us. Apparently even the local bank was going to shut down their bank account until he said that he didn’t want anything to do with us. He even told the Gay Pride event that he wanted to “get behind what they were doing” – this is the leader of the Prayer Center! What a shame!


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The Gay Pride Movement is coming out of the closet all over the world to proudly proclaim in public to the world that “Gay Is Ok.” If depraved sinners are going to be so bold in their sinning, should not Christians rise up in The Street Preacher Movement to boldly rebuke sin and call sinners to repentance? Yes, we should. “Silence is not an option” when it comes to the Gospel and the Great Commission.

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We showed up at the park with our signs and banners. My banner said, “Turn to Jesus” on one side and “Repent of Your Sins” on the other. It was a very generic banner that could be used at any street preaching event. One sister on the team had a more specific sign for this event, “Say No to Male-Phobia.” Male-phobia is a term I made up to describe lesbians who were abused my men and now have an irrational fear of all men, leading them to turn to lesbianism. Though they still have a natural attraction to masculine figures, which is why they turn to masculine lesbians.

Homosexuals like to claim that Christians like me are “homophobic,” which isn’t true. That is just a slander to try to paint us in a bad light. I have no fear of homosexuals, to the contrary, I fear for them. They are killing each other with deadly diseases. But male-phobia is a real thing. I tell them, “I know a man who you can trust, who can help you get over your male-phobia. His name is Jesus Christ!”

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It is amazing how many dialogs you can get into just by holding a gospel banner. I’ve had some people who engage in evangelism tell me that signs and banners just “turn people off” and “push people away,” but I have found the opposite to be true. Signs and banners pull people in! All I had to do was hold my “Turn to Jesus” “Repent of Your Sins” sign at this park, without doing any open air preaching yet, and tons of people came up to talk with me! One was a journalist who was surprised that I came all the way from Texas just for this event. Another was the event MC who kept coming to talk to me when he wasn’t on the stage!

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The teenagers at this event made their own signs to protest mine. If you look at the picture above you can see that they actually used hockey sticks for their protest signs! That is how you know you are in Canada!

One sign said, “Love thy neighbor” and another said, “Love wins.” Love is actually what I was engaged in out there. I wasn’t going to stay silent as society goes to hell. I have the gospel that can change and transform homosexuals into new creatures in Christ. Silence would be unloving. Silence would be the hate. As Jesus said, as many as I love I rebuke and chasten.

We were showing love out there but the homosexuals were the hateful ones, as you will see.

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For open air preaching I decided to move away from the stage with their speakers towards the back of the event. It wasn’t long after I started open air preaching that a crowd circled around me. I engaged them in a civil discussion about God and sin until a sinner came up behind me and stole my banner.

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This was the man who ripped the banner from me. He then proceed to destroy the sign. All it said was “Turn to Jesus” and “Repent of Your Sins” – nothing super offensive. Yet he stole it and destroyed it.

Throughout the event were harassed, assaulted, stolen from, had a lite cigarette thrown in my face, slandered, etc, all in the name of love and acceptance. They hated us in the name of love – rejected us in the name of diversity and acceptance.

After I got back home from Texas I was told that the devil was busying lying about me there in Canada. One report said “Jesse Morrell went to jail for assaulting a little boy.” Wow! Somehow this slander was going around that I was arrested during the Gay Pride event for beating up a boy! It was also reported that I hit a guy with my sign! What? You know you are doing a good work when the devil feels the need to lie about you. I never even saw a single Police Officer at the Gay Pride outreach.



Watch the church sermons and open air videos from this trip here:

Open Air Outreach YouTube Videos


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Praise God these are some encouraging emails that I have gotten from all over the world! China, India, Canada, and France!




“Thank you brother Jesse. I’m from India I have watched your YouTube videos. America is so blessed with the free speech your videos inspire not only American college students but many around the world. I work in IT firm here in India and I’m a conservative Christian. It’s a dark culture here to be a conservative Christian being a software developer and a conservative christian in IT industry in India is too much for me to handle most of the time and being a woman adds up to everything in a country where women are openly disrespected or objectified because sadly Bollywood is the way of life here. Churches here are mostly far from preaching the true gospel. These kinds of powerful videos are reaching us too. Thank you so much. Praise God for your ministry. God bless you and your lovely family.”

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China, India, Canada, and France! Praise God we are reaching the world with the gospel of Jesus Christ!



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How Jesus Changed My Homicidal Mind | Neuroscience | Jesse Morrell

~ Jesse Morrell
I used to fill my mind with the lyrics of rap music. “Kill, Kill, Kill. Murder, Murder, Murder.” Those were actual lines. I memorized countless songs about violence, murder, drive-by’s, etc.
Fighting was a passion of mine, even in elementary school. It was one of the few things I felt really good at, something that made me stand out amongst the crowd. I wasn’t good at traditional sports. Fighting was my sport. I lost a few, I won a lot.
I had been in 24 separate street fights by the age of 16. Once when I was 15, I fought 5 guys all at once, who were all ages 18-21. I whooped them good too. Even had my neck slit in a knife fight but that fight too, with the help of some friends, we won.
I was very proud of my fighting skills and relished retelling the war stories to my friends. I boasted in my violence.
Fighting became routine. Every two weeks I would somehow get into a fist fight. My knuckles were always broken because I never gave them the time to heal in-between fights.
As a freshmen in high school I started getting into fights with some of the seniors. There was a particular group of them that I had a beef with. I threatened the life of one of them in the school, in front of a Police Officer. Attacked one of them in the hallway. Fought one of them after school, a fight I forfeited after taking maybe 25 punches in the nose.
I wanted to kill the whole bunch of them. I had homicidal fantasies of taking them out, one by one. I thought I was smart enough to get away with it too. I wanted everyone to know it was me doing it, but not have anyone be able to prove it. I even inquired with some friends of mine about getting a gun.
My head was filled with thoughts like, “I want him DEAD! I want his family DEAD! I want his house burned to the GROUND!” as the quote goes.
The world I knew was a hostile and violent one. But then new thoughts started to enter my mind. I had been locked up in jail, for a fight I had been in, when I heard a preacher. I wasn’t allowed out of my cell because I beat up an inmate a few days prior, but I could hear him from my cell. He preached about sin, hell, and the new birth. It was then that my eyes were opened to how sinful I had become, how hell deserving I was, and I saw myself condemned in the darkness.
A short time afterwards I began to read the Bible. Never before had I read or heard the sermons of Jesus. They were revolutionary to my mind. When I read Jesus say, “Love your enemies” I was dumbfounded. Never before had I heard anyone talk like that. It was so foreign, so out of this world, that I knew this was the teaching of God.
It was a completely new idea to my mind. It wasn’t just “fight or flight.” There was a third option I never ever thought of. I could love my enemies. This was a new neurological idea, a completely new thought in my brain.
I was born again a short time afterwards, dedicating my life to follow the teachings of Jesus. I repented of all my sins and didn’t want to hurt anyone anymore.
Just like I used to memorize and recite rap lyrics, now I was filling my mind with the Word of God, memorizing and quoting scripture. The Bible was rewiring my brain, literally.
My life was truly changed. I went from being a violent 15 year old, who was going in and out of jail with homicidal fantasies, to being a loving and caring 16 year old, going on mission trips to bring supplies to orphans in Mexico.
I saw those older boys I used to fight with. They tried to hit me with their car. My anger inside started to rise up and I wanted to jump on the car, bash the window, and pull them through it. But I swallowed my pride, calmed my anger, told myself that was the old me, and let it go.
A short time afterwards I saw them outside of a donut store. They all had motorcycles now and had been cruising around before taking a break in this parking lot. They saw me. I walked to my car, opened the trunk, and started to get something out.
They must have thought I was getting out a baseball bat or something because they put their helmets back on. But I walked over to them, handed them some gospel tracts, and told them that Jesus Christ had changed my life. I apologized for “rubbing them the wrong way” when we were in High School (I was a drop out by this time). I told them the gospel had done so much good in my life that I wanted to share it with them.
They were surprised. One of them in particular still had a very bad attitude towards me. But one of them said, “Thank you so much. That’s really big of you.” It clearly was making a big impression upon him. I knew that he came from a muslim background, his parentings immigrated from the middle east.
Ironically, in that same parking lot a few months later, I was visiting some old friends who started saying things to some girls that were hanging out there. The girls rejected their advances, they started cussing at each other, and their boyfriends from the big city were called. My friends ran when the guys arrived but I didn’t. They came at me to attack me but I told them it wasn’t me. The girls said, “He was with them.” He was a big guy, very angry, but I thought I could still take him if I wanted. But I didn’t want to. I didn’t have any of the anger or hatred that used to motivate my fights. I just wanted to share the gospel with them, the gospel that changed my heart and life. He hit me and gave me a black eye or bloody nose (I don’t remember which one) and I let him pick me up and literally put me in a trash can, without any resistance, as humiliating as it was, because I didn’t want to hurt the guy. I told them, “I’m a Christian and I don’t fight anymore.”
As a street preacher, I’ve taken numerous punches and blows from punks that clearly didn’t even know how to fight. I knew if I wanted to I could severely hurt them. Many times I see the clear shot to their Adam’s apple, as they are attacking me. But I don’t want to hurt anyone. I want to help everyone. Because I no longer idolize those low-life gangsters that I used to. I worship Jesus Christ and want to be like Him.
I tell this to show that Jesus Christ is good for the world. He took a man like me, who relished in violence and had homicidal fantasies, and completely transformed me in heart and mind. I can literally say that since being born again, I am truly a new creature in Christ, with a completely different brain than the dark one I had before. He is the light of the world and the only hope for humanity.




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